i dont know. i miss you so much. so much that it hurts me everyday to the point where i want to cry. all the time. but i shouldnt. i know i shouldnt be. i miss you so much. im trying to move on so badly. and with me trying, its getting in the way of future relationships with others that i care about. i dont know. im such a mess right now. i love you. always have. always will. but im tired of waiting for your answer. im tired of waiting for you to decide if you want me in your life or not. im exhausted. im tired of being like this. i feel for my friend. bottom line. and its one of the best thing, yet most worst thing thats ever happened to me.

and vegetable. i do like you. but its just sigh. we both dont know. so i guess we’re on the same plane. i dont want to hurt you at all. with all the shit standing between us. but i want you in my life…i feel so selfish right now. whats the right thing to do anymore….